Need

I really need a holiday, its not that im super stressed or anything, i just really fucking want one.

I havnt been on one in fucking ages, like i went to london last summer but that totally didnt count. I want to go to vienna, I know nothing about it, but i wanna go soooo bad, and its all because of this song

I want this to be the back of the apartment i stay in.

This will be the front.

Interior.

I will do things like this, fun.

Clearly leading to this.

Make this happen holy spirits above.

Fill me full of CAAAAAACK!

White Room

Iv always wanted an ALL white room, But i know il never have one, Im too messy and have to much clothes and i just dont have the patience for it.

Makes me sad. All i want is White walls, white floors, white EVERYTHING.

Its so delicious and crisp, its like a dream, i mean can you imagine waking up in one of these rooms, preferably beside the sea or a lake. I'd feel so inspired and energetic.
Anyhoo Its monday college again, i didnt go in today, but i forgave myself because iv been in every monday so far so its A-ok. This weekend was pretty uneventful which was nice, it revolved around xfactor, tea and eating.

Bonne Nuit

My week in pictures.

Not inspired to write anything, so heres some pics.

C.U.N.T

Ncad Ball

Mess

Today cuddles with kitteh and xfactor and tea.

Nice things

I SHAVED MY HEAD!

This is what i like to think i look like!

Shame ball

We all went to the ncad ball last night, it was rather fun. got seriously fucked up.

I remember predrinks + like an hour of it, then i left with out my knowledge and had sex.

I have a mother of a hang over, watching americas best dance crew for the first time, its entertaining.

Tonight we have to go down to crawdaddy for a sidetracked thing because my friend is exibiting photos at it. Im going to die now and nap.

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

I feel really good right now, Im so glad i have some structure to my life at last. I need it to function in life, otherwise i go off the rails and go a little crazy i.e this summer.

When i look back on this summer, i dont know how i feel about it. It was a constant mess and honestly kinda scary. I was completely awol. It just didnt work for me, but it was just summer and its fine, i know i acted highly inappropriate and got way to fucked drunk to function.

But all is well now ever sense i started college, a course that i really wanted as-well(costume design) and turned 20 things have started coming together. Im allot more in control, i dont go out and get so drunk that i do stupid things, those of you who know me know what im talking about.

Iv started sketching and reading again, and being proactive. I lost myself for a while but im back now and better than new. But i just wanted to say to everyone who saw me through it and didnt run away from my rolling ball of falling apart, thank you. I love you all very much. x

Revalation

Now im come to the conclusion that ALL drinks that have a large drinking opening.

ARE FUCKING DELICIOUS.

I dont think i can name one thats not nice. Think about it?

now this is supposed to be jaffo mango juice but i couldn't find a picture

I cant sleep lately, it takes me like 2 hours minimum to fall asleep. Tossing and turning and tossing and turning! It makes me sick because i know im tired and my body knows im tired but its all like '' oh no, oh no your not falling asleep, keep thinking about how amazing it would be to be able to stop time and go through your whole life thinking about what you would do and like would you rob banks and take sneaky looks at rides bangin dicks''

Its even more anoying because i usta be an awesome sleeper.

I think id sleep like an angel if i had any of these beds. They're fucking gorgeous!

Especially this, it looks so comfy and fluffy.

Overheard.

Two knacker gurlies.

Gurlo 1 ''An like did he say why he broke up with you?''

Gurlo 2 ''He said its cuz everyone says im fuckin rotten''

Poor unfortunate looking itinerant

Love is touching souls, and surely you touched mine.

Im in love with Joni mitchell! I first fell in love when i was about 8 on holiday in france in my aunts house. She is my favorite singer in the whole wide world, her voice makes me tingle every single time. I could live my whole life listening to her, if i could meet one person in my life it would be her. I imagine my self singing this at least 3 times a day.

''Sorrow is so easy to express and yet so hard to tell'' Joni Mitchell

So fucking amazing

Relationship update!

I've been in a pretty serious relationship with vodka for at least 5 years. Its been a rocky road but things have been really good lately, Im good to him and he's good to me!

This ad makes me love him more and more.

Simply gorgeous so fucking crisp and sharp and beautiful!

ghetto gurls

Well i cant actualy remember the night. So far iv been told

I bar danced waring a one piece sailor suit.

thats all anyone remembers.

im cut up to bits, i have bruises all over my body, im still covered in brown snazaroo.